confuse

i already have a bf but the thing is my bf use to ignore me. i dun know what's wrong with him. i've tried so hard to save this relationship. but i dun know whether he's trying with me or not. can u imagine, yesterday was eid-dul adha celebration and his not messaging me at all to wish me selamat hari raya. i can say that i've been texting him at least 6-7 msg that day. where's have he's gone. i dun know. in my head thinking if he does love me, for sure his not gonna ignore me like this. but then im thinking again maybe this is a way to show that he want me to leave him. if yes, such an idiot way. i still love you love. i want to marry you. you are a grown up man. you're 26 sayang. please don't be too selfish. i hate that~ i love this relationship. and i love you so muchh